I want to be your hero

Let’s be real. I can’t do hero-ly shit

I can’t fly, I can’t even listen to an opinion without 

Some sort of anxiety

But I can try

And they say do, not try, but

I try nevertheless to send you my limited words

To help us understand each other

To bring you anything I can when I see you hurt

And it jabs you every time, so I guess

Maybe it’s not worth it

Even trying  

And how can a hero be a hero when they 

Doubt themselves constantly?

I love you; I don’t want you to kill yourself

Don’t take the knife, please

I love you 

I love you

I say this as I forget about you during

My own shit going on

I say this as I cry when instead

I should give you useful advice

I say this as I take comfort in my own interests

And so the weight of those words

Really can’t rest on me, can they? 

You know this well,

And I could never be that hero for you

But somehow

I don’t care

And continue to jab you with all my trying